Monday, June 9, 2025

Not a prize-winning entry...

 "If you never win and are indifferent to losing, all that's left is playing the game,"  was my In the Shade: Friendship, Loss, and the Bruce Trail observation concerning high school athletics. Apparently the same is true for literary competitions! An acrostic challenge required contestants to begin with "X-rays cannot show" before proceeding backwards through the alphabet and finishing with a sentence that started with Y. No prize, but a good work-out for my brain! 

X-rays cannot show if I need to move up a size or if thick socks, perhaps two pairs of thin ones, will provide a comfortable fit. When I was a child, the shoe-fitting fluoroscope at Eames Department Store took away the guess work. Viewing ports allowed the salesclerk, my mother, and me to see how much wiggle room there was at the tips of the leather T-straps that were under consideration and on sale. Unless I had an unusual growth spurt, the shoes were expected to last for a full year of walking to school, trudging to piano lessons, and racing around the neighbourhood on my bike. 

The fit mattered, and it matters even more now that I’m, well, getting old. Shoes need to be flat instead of flattering which leaves my suede pumps and kitten heels sitting in storage boxes on a closet shelf, awaiting their fate. Rarely worn, they are remnants of a professional and social life that led me to the podium at conferences, to the dancefloor at weddings, but also to the bursitis that’s causing the joints in my left foot to swell.

Quite a few in my demographic share my concern which explains why Skechers, the multinational built on cushioned insoles, reached $8 billion in sales last year. Profits are soaring thanks to a design that eliminates the need to bend down or use a long-handled shoehorn. Only one in my circle of friends persists with stilettos and slingbacks. None of us thought we’d be wearing the runners once purchased for aerobics classes everywhere else, but here we are. Matinees, medical appointments, and meeting grandkids after school create a schedule that varies but footwear that doesn’t.

Listening to the millennials, you’d think no one had given birth or negotiated with a toddler before they did. Kind of like me when it comes to aging. Judicious insights were available from my mother, my mother-in-law, my second cousin once removed. I never asked. How did I not see their disappointment when wrapped parcels contained Velcro-tab slippers? Gifts like this proved we had not been paying attention. Feet were the least of their worries. Each of them was navigating a riptide of loss when partners died, homes were sold, and drivers’ licenses taken away.

Dusting off and donating shoes is straightforward by comparison. Cold temperatures and icy sidewalks offer an excuse to wait another week before loading boxes into my trunk, dropping them off at a thrift shop. Bye-bye midlife as well as any sense of style I ever had.

A salesclerk checks the soles before assigning a price. Zones within the store help shoppers find what they need: Clothing, Electronics, Books. Yet when she places my shoes in Vintage, it’s unsettling because the category that once implied old-fashioned and out-of-date now, apparently, includes me.  

Wednesday, May 21, 2025

The library has my back...

Libraries and independent bookstores are a huge boost to writers like me. Thanks, Hamilton Public Library, for ordering eight copies of my new collection for your shelves! Readers will notice that the first essay, Borrowing, is a love letter to librarians.

Thursday, February 27, 2025

This piece began as an essay. Then I went on a writing retreat with Brian Henry who's a writer + teacher + editor + encourager + builder of literary community. He suggested I keep the beets but add an angry fictional character and submit it to CommuterLit. He though it would take 2-3 hours from my draft to final product (it did not), but it's now done and finding its way in the world of online publications. 

Monday, January 27, 2025

Essay seven, Dog Days, in this collection includes some lines about Blossom's arrival. My mother died. My career wound down. "This would be manageable," I muttered through the loops of the afghan pulled over my head, "if I had a dog." Like the wooden stools designed for children, four-legged companions keep me from wobbling too. The clear-cut needs of a dog provide balance to the complexity of human relationships. Being greeted with enthusiasm and affection is a bonus. An absence of five minutes or five days, the welcome's the same.

Yeah, and now she's gone. Another essay about her, Stitching, was written after the book was published. If you are a dog person, or trying to understand the dog person in your life, it's available for the asking.

I'm also revisiting and revising the loss playlist posted on my  In the Shade blog. If you are in need of comfort, you may find it one of those tender melodies.

Friday, January 3, 2025

Demolition Fall 2024

There used to be a church at the corner of Main St. West and Cline Ave. North in Hamilton. Watching it be, well, demolished, prompted a personal essay. A short version was published and is available online; a longer version is available to any who asks...

 

Tuesday, September 10, 2024


So excited to announce that the Toronto Public Library has 5 copies of my book. Put one of them on hold! The first essay in the collection is, yup, a tribute to libraries and librarians.

Not in the GTA? Ask YOUR library to consider adding a copy to their collection. 

Sunday, July 21, 2024


Wonderful to start the week with an author event at King West Books, Hamilton.  Originally scheduled to launch In the Shade: Friendship, Loss, and the Bruce Trail in March 2020, it had to be postponed. The good news? I could also include readings from the NEW book, Mosaic through East-Facing Glass. 

Dave and Teresa have built not only a book and mixed media store; they build community. As a self-published author, independent bookstores are a great way to find new readers.